the days without po-po

It has been 2 weeks since the day u left me and ur love ones, i stil cant forget the moment i see the msg written on my skype ' grandma passed away ' at 4.15pm on 22nd of oct 2009...

it was a sunny day. i was so busy packing my luggages as i will be flying back from perth for good on early friday morning. i was so excited about my return as i could drive back to BG together with mom and ah yee immediately after our arrival on friday noon and see you at late evening and take you out for dinner, breakfast lunch dinner and so on for the remaining days...but somehow, everything was really fated and there goes my lovely grandma...

do you know i regret not calling you on thursday morning to inform you that i will be back tmr? do u know i feel so depressed when i know that your last breath was in the bathroom? everytime when i walk into the bathroom, i think of you...i rmb the days when i shower you...

po-po, i miss you so much

i hear a lot of stories about the maid and i hope she wasn't the person who caused your death, i hope she didnt treat you bad in the past 3 yrs, i hope she gets her punishment for how she had treated you...

i am not in the mood to look for a job but still, i force myself to go and look for one...i feel like cleaning my WHOLE hse but i do not have the rights to touch this and that, so what can i do? leave all rubbishes lying there for another yr and one more yr and another century? lolzzz..that's impossible!