a good start!

My first permanent job (hopefully) has started for a week! so far i see everyone in the office has simple dressing and looks. i have not much pressure as there are no competitors in fashion! But i am not sure about their strengths!!! But when come to age, i feel so lonely as most all of them are above 30 yrs old and only few ladies are stil in their late 20s while i m in my beginning of my 20s!!! i feel so proud for being the youngest in this company but still, so lonely as no one talk to me things about what my age is suppose to be doing! Not to mention guys as there are only 30% and most of them are old!!! My definition for old is above 30yrs old and not the handsome type, not interested in finding out whether they are still single or married!

Lunch time, aunties talk about marriages, kids, husbands...i get to learn all of this but wondering when can i start using all these? start thinking whether i should continue with this co as i cant find a person who can talk to me like my friends who normally did. Should i consider joining their group or keep to my own style and wait for the right time to do the right thing?

Being a fresh grad to join a 10 yrs old co is a very challenging job to me. Following the seniors who has 8 yrs of experience makes me feel happy as i could learn from them! But at the same time, makes me feel so stupid as i only have theories in my mind but not any practical experience! As i answered my manager during the interview, AT THIS STAGE, LEARNING IS MORE IMPORTANT TO ME...so i have to bear with it!

I am still doing things using my own style, and of cos, walk and stand and sit and eat with MY OWN STYLE where new ppl will not like it, only ppl who are very close to me will understand me! so, whenever new ppl see me, they will stay far away from me! I am a weird person in their eyes