everything came too fast

i couldnt accept the fact!
everything came too fast...
a happy birthday turned out to be a sad funeral...
my last talk wif her was mths ago! my last meet up wif her was in february 2009...

a very strong and independent grany is no longer in this world! i only see her lying in the coffin with her pretty face and eyes closed...

grany, why didnt you wait for one more day more? everyone of us were about to reach home to sing you a birthday song and blow candles and cut the big big birthday cake!

all these nvr happen anymore, we could only light up candles and joss sticks and burn the 'money' for you! i cant get angpow from you anymore!

i am curious about ur death grany, could you pls tell me the truth on how it was during that day? could you pls tell me if the maid had treaten you bad? could you pls tell me?

i feel happy for janet, my cousin who got to kiss my grany for her first and last time weeks ago when she went back to BG, i feel happy for my dad and mom who went back a week before grany passed away to see her!

i feel sad for myself not being a good grand daughter! grany, i cant forget the days when you were weak and i took care of you, taking shower for you, feeding you, massaging your hands and legs, sleeping with you!

grany left us not because she was ill, i believe she is too tired throughout the 90 yrs...

pls R.I.P..

i will miss you forever! i will nvr forget you, thanks grany for taking care of me for the past 22 yrs and always smile to me when you see me! i miss everything of you!