hoping too much from you as a friend

30th March

I thought i could hold on till the last day we see each other, i thought i could be calm..i thought i can persuade myself to think less and be more observant...but it's just all what i thought and it's just all rubbish in the end!

How can a person like me treat you so good and yet, getting this back?okay, maybe to you, that wasnt good enough, but you didnt know how much i treasure our friendship! I know i shouldnt have crossed the border but i am trying hard to pull myself off from it. Dateline is finished, time is passing very fast. Everything has come to an end and i have to get myself up and start my engine for the very last semester! Only 2 papers for finals, so what the hell m i doin now? GO THINK FOR MY OWN FUTURE AND NOT BOUT RUBBISH ANYMORE! i promised, i can do better without you by my side. I dun give a shit to it anymore! You go your way, i go my way.

This blog is to apologize to you. I didnt mean to say all those words to you in the sms, you might be wonderin whats wrong wif me. I bet you are gonna avoid me and our friendship will just be like water pouring out from an aquarium, fish dying without water. Sorry for being so emo recently, i think it was because i'm putting hope on you. And that was so wrong! So all the best to you, and i have no idea how to face you, i shall just go back to my own life. i wish we are not going to see each other, at least i dun feel so awkward.