am i a burden to u?

Sunday, 10th Aug 2008

Sometimes, i just think, isit better to stay in msia?did i make a wrong decision for coming over to Perth to study? isit better to go elsewhr rather than coming over to Perth? i thought everythin will b fine. i thought it will b ok. i really thought i can make it...but it seems that things are gonna change soon.

Whom can i talk to when i m facing this kinda problem? can i tell mom?can i tell dad?can i tell sis?can i tell bff?can i tell GOD?

I admit i am a very sensitive person. I take all words seriously, but i will not keep in heart for long. But this time, it's abit hard for me not to rmb what you have told me. Tell me straight to the point if you want me to move out. Tell me straight to the point if you do not like me. Tell me straight to the point!!! I don't know how to face you already. Besides the family here, i have no bff in Perth yet. You advised me to stay at hostel with friends. But which friend? I really cant think of anyone whom i can click well with. Everyone is staying far apart. Everyone are just......Have you ever think of the cost of living if I am staying out there? I've no idea how am I going to support myself with just one or two part time jobs. I have no idea how are my parents going to react if they hear this. WHAT'S GOING ON HERE???

You see me good, i see you good. I was nvr happy at all from the day i arrived. I am worried about my financial, i am worried about my relationship with my relatives, i am worried about my studies, i am worried about my health, i am worried about my safety, i am worried about my family!!! How long more can i stand? It's just the first mth here, i still have 11 mths to go.

I am also a person who is easily distracted by things happening around me. Even a small thing which happened to me, which ppl think it's just a minor problem, i could b unhappy and get angry easily. For the whole week, i coulnt concentrate on my studies. Why???

Can someone pls take me away? Can someone pls help me on this? Can someone pls guide me? Can someone pls...just pls, give me more care and love???
When?Who?Where?How?What?????

Very depress, planned to study but mood is affected and now, MOODLESS,HELPLESS, feeling so USELESS